Plateau

   It's been a strange weight loss month. I was on a nasty plateau for a month. It really had a grip on me, and in spite of the standard reasons and classic excuses, I was losing confidence in myself, fast. Deep down in I knew what I was doing wrong. But don't we all? I do think there are times when we don't have a good response on the scale, but I also think there are more times we use excuses and don't look at ourselves honestly. There's a lot of denial in losing weight. Lots!

  I'm going to confess my short comings that were sabotaging my loss. Too much peanut butter on my toast in the morning, too big of a "splash" of sugar free creamer in my coffee, way to big of portions of food, not watching the amount of salad dressing I was using on my salad, nibbling on food while I cooked, using way too much ketchup, too many late night snacks,. I could go on. I switched my on line tracking from weight watchers to My Fitness Pal. Please don't get me wrong, I love Weight Watchers! But I needed to be more accurate. Just for now. Sometimes when we are stuck, it helps to change things around. There is no"magic" diet. there are many healthy "vehicles" that will take you down the path to weight loss. I like to switch it up a bit, and keep it fresh. After a week of taking inventory on my food. I was down 8 pounds! It is always the brightest after the darkest night.

   I had a "come to Jesus" meeting with my trainers. (They are so amazing!) we decided to weigh weekly instead of monthly. This helped greatly. I've actually been weighing every morning. Not obsessively but keeping close track. It's just to easy for me to have a " little treat" since I don't weigh for a month or even a week. Isn't it amazing the head games we play with ourself? I. Really Appreciate my trainers for never shaming me, yet being very honest. I trust them, I know everything they do is for my own good. Weight lose is a very personal thing, more complex, the heavier you are. It's a delicate balance between being honest and out of denial, and confronting our flaws. It takes a lot of trust to be this transparent. I am in awe of the emotional maturity of these young 20-something's. they are wise beyond their years. That's what happens when you are doing the very thing you are passionate about.

  It was pointed out to me that I spent too much time feeling sorry for myself in the past. Which was annoying and exhausting to my friend. Ouch! That hurt. Pretty bad, actually. But, I guess there is some truth to it. I hear that a lot about people who think someone is wallowing in their grief or sorrow too long. I have worn out a lot of friends. I feel bad about that. But I want to thank those of you that have been merciful, and a steady force in my life. You are truly special people. You have been Jesus to me. It was selfless and humbling to me. Blessings to all of. You.

   One more thing I have added to my weight loss program is a life coach. This was another "God thing". I've not shared it with very many people, because it is deeply personal. This opportunity just fell in my lap. A dear friend recently came back into my life via Facebook. It's a very long story, but she is mentoring people through their emotional hurdles. She offered to help me. This is one more piece to the recovery I have needed. In only a few short weeks I have found some much needed peace. My journey is long, but I trust God, and with every step he has given me what I needed, at that very moment. "I will sing of the Mercies of The Lord forever....."

   Blessings to all of you. I so appreciate your reading my blog. It makes my journey less lonely.

Kathy